What is Excitement

The anticipation of something new or unknown is always much more euphoric than that thing itself. Your imagination goes into a frenzy, painting vivid and ebullient pictures of the events about to unfold. You feel giddy, butterflies start titillating your innermost desires, enticing feelings like that, of a new love or the passion of a consummated one. Summoning emotions that transcend mendacity of this pretentious world, absolving you of your dark desires. Yielding an amalgamation of thoughts with emotions & desires that elates you into a trans, as if you have achieved nirvana and are ready to ascend to a final abode.

Excitement is a drug so powerful that even morphine seems like an overrate artisanal water. The whirlwind of thoughts, comotion of emotions and beguilement of desires, that it entrails are like the ubiquitous longing of a chronic methhead. You start contemplating the improbable; imploring to elements to incite time dilation. So, that you can have both the physical and the metaphysical experiences at once.

Though it is hard to comprehend or possibly explain such longings. Perhaps our inner child could explain it as we adults are overly-cautious and intensely disturbed about the directions of our own thrills. Unfortunately and Ironically, the baroque explanations pulled from deepest childhood memories, are so odd to ourselves, that we unwittingly try to repress them.

Enthusiasms arising from excitement is so overwhelming that we thwart for in its obviation. This may sound odd but this enthusiasm is in fact motivated by a search for extrication of truth and eloquence. It not only paints a utopian perspective of things about to unfold but, also provides solutions to the thing we fear; making us feel more at ease, more relaxed and true to ourselves.

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Ode to Man

Ode to man
The king is as much a man,
As is a puny and destitute beggar.

A munificent philanthropist is as much a man,
As is an avaricious mercenary or an indefatigable conscript.

It is man who constructs temples, so is the man who ordains monks or monarch
It is man who construes philosophy, as is he, who defiles its austerity.

A vicious slayer is, as much a man,
As is a magnanimous savior.

It is man who exploits another, so is the man who liberates them
It is man who fumbles for help, so is he, who comes to his aid.

From a frivolous loon to a coward renegade,
From a chivalrous king to a gallant knight

It is man who rules a million heart, so is him who ruins a lone one
It is him who he yearns for, so is him who he despises
It is man who professes off worthiness, so is he who confesses of worthlessness.
It is man who is GOOD, so is he who is EVIL

Are religious people inferior life forms compared to enlightened atheists?

Atheists don’t boast superiority nor they profess of being the enlightened one and Religion plays little to no role in determining superiority nor does it affects enlightenment.

Superiority is a simply a concept made-up by narcissists with a god complex. Superiority doesn’t imply enlightenment not does enlightenment imply superiority, men are not created equal they “were” equal. It’s the inner moral compass that guides you to enlightenment, not your religion or the lack of it.

History has numerous examples where men claimed they were superior to others because of their religious beliefs or the superiority of their religion. But just look, what these superiors have done. From the ulama’s of Islam, who use jihad as a tool to commit murders in the name of God; to the protectors of the faith of the Christ with their of crusades and franchise of conversion; or the god-men of Hinduism with their megalomaniac egos. These over glorified fascist and fanatics have twisted and drained the entirety of Morales and aura of enlightenment from their own faiths.

Just because, you have a different belief system which you consider to be an epitome of enlightenment or a social order that you remark as civilized, doesn’t necessarily makes you superior or enlightened.

Think about it, the Spanish conquistadores present them themselves as gods to the Mayans and Incas, proclaiming to be enlightened and superior to their ancient ways. But these enlightened supremacists destroyed a much superior society. I agree they were barbarians but shouldn’t these enlightened gods have instead helped them overcome that one thing. Or weren’t these enlightened beings as barbaric as them, for slaughtering millions in the name of God.

In fact, modern educated society is also not different in that regard. Men like Jim Jones, Shoko Asahara, Bhindranwale, Joseph Koney, Abu Bakr al-Baghdadi and much more developed a cult around them which ultimately leads to the death of humanity itself. Hitler professed of Aryan supremacy and look what he did with that supremacy. And only an egomaniac narcissist would think that some people are superior to others. Africans were said to be an inferior race but science ultimately proved that in fact, they are the real forefathers of humans race on earth.

So you see enlightenment and superiority are worlds apart. An enlightened society will never deal with a relative concept like superiority.

Buddha was enlightened but we turned him into a religious figure and polluted his teachings. Krishan was enlightened but he is was promoted to the status of a god, Christ was enlightened and still, millions were slaughtered for his glory, Mohammad was enlightened but we killed his ideology for a ransom called heaven.

Religion vs God. Who will win?

Religion has too deep a root. It’s like a disease that can only be suppressed but never cured. Many generations have tried to cure it’s most alarming symptoms but it always finds an antidote. If it’s not able to fight it, it assimilates it into its core.

May it be Christ, Prophet or other contemporary god men who tried to break the shackles of religion. We have twisted their afflictions to inflictions. Just look what have we done to their beliefs and teachings. Honor killing, dowry on the name of cultural dogma, terrorist jihad, pseudo monotheism, forced conversation. Were these the lessons they want the world to know.

We are spending millions in the name of religious ceremonies, all in their name; when we have far greater issues at bay. Religion !! What good has it ever brought? Wads of cash have been plunged into the abyss named religious freedom when the same amount could have been spent on more important issues like poverty or food security or human rights and basic freedoms.

But believe me, this entreprise of millionaires and billionaire is here to stay. The whole concept of religion has now been covered into a gold clade tyranny of profit making endeavor. This enterprise was once an abode of hope, restitution, and self-discovery. Now it has transmuted into to a corporate piranha.

The concept of God may fade may into the elusive enigmas of the quantum realm. But this leech will surely survive.

Just think about it. Why won’t the religion survive without God?

The god to whom hoards of religion are dedicated yet none seems to to be dedicated to him alone.

What good a god is when your god is and will always be different from my God.

What’s good with the god when your dedication will always be more superior than mine.

Every century has considered itself to the modern age but they all failed to foresee the iron fist tyrant named “religion”, steadily tightening its grip on society or masses. As long as the paranoia and insecurity instilled into the social construct by this gargantuan beast is present. No amount of educational awakening or awareness, scientific prowess will ever be able to combat the infection of this plague.

 

Rumbels of an insomanic : Continued

Oh Man! This fan is driving me crazy. The constant swirling and the accompanied hiss is making me nauseated. As the fan swirls, it jostles the air within the confines of my sanctum sanctorum, generating what can only be defined as micro tornadoes. These tornadoes are agitating the bedsheet and the duvet with waves like that of an ocean. Even the curtains are going berserk, getting swept into the air like the north wind blows the skirts of those crazy Scotsmen. These fuckers are even fluttering my shorts and tees. Creeping me out, with the feeling as if something is crawling under my skin.

It’s hardly even a minute and my brain is already treating this hostile invasion as an irreverent nuisance and begging me to break-in those new noise canceling headphones. Even after, putting these puppies on, this sinner is still humming like a swarm of bumblebees in high noon. Hey! dude [Mr. God], please send those minions of yours to help me refrain from fucking this sinner over.

So, the genius that I am, I did try to look for a fan with silencers but man; are they expensive or what. I am absolutely certain that the inventor of these swirling bastards must have despised humans or was deaf. Why else would he have not made these lunatics silent?

But in part, I am also to be blamed. Why the heck did I choose this medieval torture device and that too with reflecting golden rims on rotor. These abominations reflect like disco balls. I may be exaggerating here, but they sure seem to reflect too much light from that minuscule night lamp on the other end of the room. I bet you even Hades has one of these in his VIP chambers, reserved only for the likes of Hitler. Just, just look at it. Nodding its neck in arrogance as if it is taunting me.

Fan: Pssst….. MATE, don’t make me come down there. 

And stop looking at me with those hateful eyes. 

I have been nothing but good to you. 

You see, I have eyes too.

I know you what you are ranting about me on that phone of yours.

I am not kidding I will come down there.

Any time now… sure…just keep looking at me like that … and anytime now.
Me: Relax, relax you freak. 

Okay, I am looking away now just don’t do anything rad. 

Be cool man.

Be cool.

Wooooha…, that was a close one. Just thinking about the blood bath that it would have created gives me Hibby-Jibbies. This would have surely ruined all my fancy gadgets. Wait…! What fancy gadgets?

Huh, It seems I am more bothered about my gadgets than myself. I must be going cuckoo. I guess, talking to a fan surely does make you go nuts.Dude if that fan falls on you, you are cold turkey.

Meanwhile; That sinister twin was laughing his hearts out. His green eyes were glowing along with a massive grin on his face. So, I confronted him.

Me : Hey!! You, Yes! You, 

Mr. Cool, I am in this tensed situation with your twin brother because of you. 

Why did you bail on me when I need you most. 

What do you think of yourself? That since graduated with the best cooling solutions you are special. 

Well, fuck you too. Mr. AIR CONDITIONER. 

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A letter to Destiny

To Destiny
Cloud Nine, Kismat Lane,
Opp. Luck, Fate —101
Neverland

Dear Destiny,

It’s been ages! How are you? Or rather, where have you been??

I know you may not remember me as our paths have not crossed since our first encounter but please bare with me. This may jog your memory. I am that same weird lump hanging upside down, naked, crying while a strange creature was smacking my tushy; “Ankit”. In fact, you were the love at first sight for my mom since she saw you there.

First, I must admit, I have since, I was a kid wondered why or what did you promised her during that meeting that she fell for you much harder for you than I ever did. Many times, I wish I could go back to that room and listen to your conversation with her. Even though 20, 25 odd years have passed this question and a few others still perplexes me. Thus, to crush the curiosity bug in my grey matter I am writing this letter to you.

Anyways, I am getting ahead of myself. What I want to tell you is that there is no place in the world that I haven’t looked for you. Ironically, I stumbled upon your address when I abandoned the accepted societal myth, that only those who fell into the chasm of the rat race for money, fame, and success will ever find you. Therefore, you may rest assured I won’t grill you about money or fame.

So, here goes.

Every myth I have ever heard about you had these things in common:
1. Only you and, you alone determine the success
2. You are elusive
3. No amount of Hard work or toil can change you.

Are they true? I need an answer from the horse’s mouth.

Because in my opinion its other way around. I believe only hard work and dedication can seduce success, you are merely an auditor who can easily be bribed by dedication and determination. I don’t know why, every time I see a post on Facebook praising you, every time I see couples on Instagram posting wedding pics hailing you. I smile, I smile sarcastically. Am I broken? or is this out of jealousy! Please, break it down for me.

How! can you be elusive? If, every damm ape assumes (that too, right from birth) that he/she is destined to be rich, famous and successful. Everrry…time, I zorb through snap chats or hashtags all I ever see are hordes of witless and phonies sighting you as their best pal. Which makes me wonder, have I been living under a rock that I didn’t even receive a postcard from you in all these years. Not that I am complaining or am mad at you. But at least a hello couldn’t have hurt. Anyhow, I hope and wish that you remain lifelong friends with them. I am really very proud of you for stepping up for them. Though I miss you but am content with my Tweedle-dee [hard work] and Tweedle-dum [hope and aspirations] for now.

Ok, before I forget. What did you say to my mom during that meeting that made her fell in love with you? I have only heard her version of things. According to her, you told her a secret. Which was “If, I ever didn’t feel happy or life seemed to be slightly dim then I must remember, it’s temporary as you[destiny] are just testing my worthiness since you[destiny] have big plans for me”.

Considering you two haven’t met or talked in ages since that last encounter, I think, your exact words were lost in translation. Correct me if my version of things is wrong. But, I think you might have said, something on these lines “Even though you[destiny] have big plans and hopes for me but only my inner conviction and perseverance will help me achieve what you[destiny] have planned for me.”

All, these years while searching for you, have made me realize. That life is meant to be hard but even a vague promise by a compassionate stranger [stranger being you] can make it extraordinary in the hopes that maybe he is seeing something good that we are still to experience or stumble upon. These promises may last a lifetime or become distant memories. But you know what? It’s okay because at least it provides solace in the fact that Sometimes life just gets in the way but still we must continue growing up and changing ourselves.

Remember, i will always be waiting for the day to be your host. And, thanks for not dozing off like ross while reading this letter in which I have rambled on for 2 pages “FRONT AND BACK”!!!!! 😊

Yours,
Ankit

If Undelivered Please return :
To, Ankit
Third Rock from the Sun,
by the ocean of opportunities,
on the boat of hope,
paddling away with oars of success

What is Truth | Part 1

What is Truth | Part 1

The truth will set you free. I never got it!! How can truth set you free when truth itself is bound by the gordian knot to lies. Truth and lie have a symbiotic relationship one cannot exist without other. The truth is just for balancing things as truth is never good. It always backfires and plunges you into the inferno of hell. Believe me, you, If everyone were to speak the truth all the time then the world would have annihilated itself long ago. Tell me have you ever encountered truth being prefixed with adjectives like sweet, beautiful or lenient; Its has and will always be prefixed with adjectives like bitter, ugly or harsh.
The fact is that truth is not always the best version of things nor Is the worst but is struck somewhere in between. Interestingly, all version of lies is always the same as it is coordinated and pre-planned but this can never be the case with truth. There are always different versions of the truth. Your version of the truth may be different from mine. The truth is always lost in translation.

We, humans, are hard wired for lies. Even if we describe events that we saw or experienced ourselves we subconsciously add events or sequence of events that didn’t even happen. It can rightly be said that There is no whole truth, All truths are half truths. I often wonder why do people say god is truth. How can an entity whose existence has not been proven or may never be is regarded as truth? This statement itself paints the conundrum that truth poses and reveals the flawed logic in truth. As we all know, the truth can never stand on its own. It always seeks approval or needs proof for it to be considered as truth. This convoluted logic has imprisoned truth for eternity.

Nobel laureate André Gide once said “Believe those who are seeking the truth. Doubt those who find it.”

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To be continued……. As Truth still deserves to be heard and remembered.

Read Part 2 here : What is truth | Part 2